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Why, as soon as i go onto medication do I start drinking EVEN more? I'm on citalopram and according to the leaflet shouldn't drink, yet last night, i drank a bottle and a half of wine, which to be fair, isn't unusual, except, it wasn't my usual lambrini which is bloomin weak in comparison.
So, I woke up this morning, the room spinning, felt sick and made it to work, I was so upset with myself for drinking, the pills are OBVIOUSLY not going to work when I am drinking!!
Am in such a drowning vicious horrible dark mess.

Maybe it's a habit now. In another thread I read you've been drinking like this for quite a while. I'm glad you're going to AA... do you have to wait until January, though? Being your on meds is a good thing, and you have to learn how to be better to yourself in order to augment what the meds do.



Have you checked out the 10 forms of twisted thinking? I know when I was having similar thoughts in the past, going through this exercise helped me.

It's not that I HAVE to wait until January, it's just that i know i'm out over the christmas period and i don't want to put the pressure on myself of not drinking. I plan to see the new year in, have a drink and then this year to bed; including the drinking and start afresh on new years day Then i plan to start going to AA and finding other ways of occupying myself

Just checking in...how are you progressing? Have you begun AA and stopped drinking?