Oops. Sorry for the lack of welcome. It's been kinda slow around here. Usually I let others do the replies because I usually don't have much to say, and there are others with more/better to say.
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Plus I feel the desperate need to latch onto someone else. I know that a relationship is unhealthy for me right now right?
I'm inclined to specify a
romantic (or sexual) relationship would I think be unhealthy for you right now. Which I know is what you meant, but, I think it's good to say that, because those other relationships can be big help in the recovery process. Sometimes support. Sometimes just fulfilling our social needs. And maybe even learning healthy relationship habits.
The other thing is, as far as moving forward in recovery, learning about oneself, and learning new skills. Like, skills for dealing with emotions. And maybe relationship skills too, although, my impression is that with BPD, most often, it's not that we need to learn skills for getting along with others, it's more, we need to learn how not to let our emotions get in the way. We need to learn balance between emotions and other types of thinking.
I don't really have any ideas for the anxiety. Sorry. I hope someone else will reply soon. Do, though, check out the "The Anxiety Closet" section of the message board, and read the posts there, where others have posted in the past about anxiety issues.