Hello to all the people out here! Very happy to find this site, it's validating to have deep parts of myself reflected in many of you, though I'm so sorry we've had to suffer to get here. As a result of a dark childhood, I am quite good at analyzing people's true motives and non-verbal communication. I can see to the truth and fairness in any situation, and as a poor little abused girl who was scapegoated by mommie-dearest, exploited by old perverts and more, I have had a lot of difficulty letting go of the past. Without my victim-child, who the hell am I? I've been living my life as 'little edge' who was very hard done by. And yes, I was very hard done by, but deserving support, validation, and justice doesn't mean you're going to get it..and I didn't get it. Letting go of that anger, even if justified, is my biggest hurdle. I'm becoming more comfortable with the fact that healing my little inner victim requires me to let go of the anger, but I could sure use some support accomplishing that! Having awareness isn't enough. I look forward to connecting with some of you on the boards. Take care
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