Update: I started to feel better a short while, and now the depression is really pulling me down. My parents keep saying, "You HAVE to overcome this, you HAVE to do better, etc..." It is killing me because I am so afraid of failing and having them tell me what I HAVE to do makes me nauseous. Now that they have found out how depressed, suicidal I really am, they keep telling my husband what a good man he is to stay, to put up with me, etc.... I know they mean well, but it makes me feel like he is doing me a "favor" and they are just grateful they don't have to deal with me. They feel sorry for my husband and my children, which makes me feel like a piece of crap.
I don't even know where to begin in recovery. I sure wish this was just a medical issue.