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Whew, I'm tired. It has been a stressful and emotional weekend. Jen, my ex-roommate came in to town, and so I got to hang out with her. It was emotionally weird though in a way. Things have changed. She was kinda my family in Glenwood, and now it just feels so different. It was still really good to see her, but I didn't anticipate I would have feelings and need to process them.

On top of that, I sort of hit on my neighor Matt on Friday night. Supposedly, this girl Clarissa is dating him, which I did not know. She talks aobut guys all the time and has said she is dating three guys right now. She pretty much went off on me. Screamed at me in the middle of the apartment hallway. It wasn't my intention to get into the middle of anything. Kinda a crazy night, and it is still just bouncing around in my head.

My instructor is observing my teaching tomorrow for the first time. I am very anxious about that. I am sitting here, trying to come up with a lesson plan.

So, I"m tired. And, I"m stressed. I think once again, I have to remind myself that I can't do everything perfectly. I am going to work on the lesson plan for two hours. And then, I need to be done with it. Worse case scenario - the class doesn't go well. I'm not going to get an F because the class didn't go well. I'm not going to get fired either. I'm fighting the internal conflict again - the need to excel versus the reality there are only so many hours in a day.

Thanks for listening,