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PostPosted: Fri Oct 29, 2010 12:59 am 
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12;43 a.m. Recap – rough week. Had to write a letter explaining to HR the whole DUI situation. Finished the alcohol classes and was successfully discharged. My requirements for court are now completed. Found out that the masters program I am in won’t lead directly to me teaching as a creative writing teacher. That one is huge, and more than I want to go into right now. Suffice it to say, took me a day and a half to process that one, to the point where I could be non-emotional and start thinking logically. Tonight, went to a fashion show with Mary, my neighbor. It was really just glorified window shopping but it was fun and different and something you can really only do in the city on a Thursday night. Overall, it was actually a good day. I felt positive, although stressed as usual. I got a later start to the day than I wanted, but I got my presentation done for class tonight and delivered it successfully. Dr. Comstock said good three times so I feel validated that I’m on the right track, at least with the homework being assigned. Tonight was when the light bulb really went off – with the clarification of what a masters in composition studies means. Again, too much to go into …but today at least, I felt like planning my future realistically, today I felt up to the challenge of at least thinking about it.
Been wicked depressed and sick the last few days. I am guessing that part of it is that it is that time of the year. November through February – that’s the pattern of me getting depressed. And, second, I took the Plan B pill not that long ago. It’s 50 times the strength of a normal birth control pill. Which means, in essence, it is going to threw my hormones and emotions for a loop.
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I am love, light and kindness. I am love, light and kindness. I am courage in action. I am courage in action. I am confident and effective in all that I do. I am confident and effective in all that I do. Life is an adventure, and I am actively living it. Life is an adventure, and I am actively living it. I am worthy of fulfilling my dreams. I am worthy of fulfilling my dreams. I am okay in this moment. I am a good teacher and an even better student. I have faith in my ability to learn, to grow, to evolve. I am capable of so much more than I think I am.

As always, just babbling ... but it helps. Thanks for listening.

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PostPosted: Fri Oct 29, 2010 10:25 am 
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I like the affirmations, Pip.

I'm sorry that the masters program isn't quite what you had in mind. For what it's worth, it seems fairly common that the degree one obtains don't always necessarily lead straight into the profession of one's dreams or desires. It sounds, though, as if you're processing through these hurdles quite well and keeping level-headed, despite the chemically-forced hormonal roller-coaster. Good for you!

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PostPosted: Fri Oct 29, 2010 7:57 pm 
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Thanks Ash! I appreciate hearing the words of encouragement. Isn't it amazing how words of encouragement can be so helpful? lol.

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PostPosted: Sun Oct 31, 2010 11:04 pm 
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Some good stuff there, pip. Love the positive thinking and affirmations.

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