Jordan.s, none of us on the is board is qualified or able to make a diagnosis as to whether or not someone has BPD or any other disorder. Please refrain from giving anyone a diagnosis.
Lizthegirl, I understand where you are coming from. I can go forever without using or drinking and then binge. It can be to self-medicate if I'm feeling empty. It can be to self-harm. Something that has helped me is trying the
five steps before I decide if I want to use. I haven't used in a very long time, although I'm still struggling with the occasional alcoholic binge.
Something else I've done is signed up for meetup.com. You can look for groups that meet in your area based on things you're interested in. I've been part of coffee clubs and book clubs. It's nice to be around others who are interacting in a healthy manner. Of course, there's drama anywhere, but I think it's worth giving it a shot. I've been lucky in the groups I've joined.
Trinity