hmmmm.....sounds familiar! yuck.....
So that was a month ago....I'm wondering how you are doing now?
I finally learned to accept things as they are and where they are and it seems like things are getting easier for that part of my life.....i had to realize that everyone has problems.....so i have to rely on myself to make it alright....and i can do that. if you have a good paying job and live in an area you like...maybe it's worth it to explore where you are now and find the treasures or lessons that await you there.....
good luck!