Thanks Myiasa,
Miyasa wrote:
I wish for you to give yourself a little more credit.
This is one of the things I trying to blend and feel good about
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Miyasa wrote:
You need to experience that trial and error, solo. You need to question your ideas, expand and experiments with your methods.
I agree it would be good for me to work ideas on my own, I think this is the best way to learn. A lot of this stuff is scary and is so strange that I have a hard time understanding what's happening to me. But I will make an effort to try it myself first.
Miyasa wrote:
Who is comfortable trying to change the ideas and behaviors they've held for a long time, years on end even? I sure as hell know I'm not. It feels weird. It felt like I was trying to be someone I wasn't - But for me, it was just resistance to change. Who cares if the tried and true failed me horribly? Whatever, it was familiar. Yeah, that was the attitude that threatened my happiness every time. So I just sort of adjusted to feeling 'weird'. I let the weird and uncomfortableness ride out for a bit, and THEN made the decision on whether or not this was actually good for me and I needed time to adjust, or it simply wasn't for me. This is a great thing for those of us that are impulsive and make decisions quickly without taking all things into consideration.
Thanks for this insight.
Miyasa wrote:
I am not trying to put you down, and I hope you don't take it that way
No I don't, I thank you for the time you have taken to provide me with this input.
Miyasa wrote:
Also, such a big part of it is learning to trust in yourself. Just give yourself a bit of time. Try it. It might feel funky, but see if that feeling leads you anywhere else before you write it off.
I'm startingt to feel better about understanding myself. I'll keep working on it.
There are two main reasons I post here so much. First, I don’t have anyone else that understands me, so it’s up to me to find the right answers. Second, I will not go back to my former life and the way I was thinking – it was a place I hated. I need to work my way into a healthy happy life.
Thanks again for everything.