hey guys...my name is Yara...and i am new to the world of BPD. well, not new, coz on reflection I have had it for at least 7 years; but i only just realized that i have it last week, with my new therapist. she went through all the diagnostic criteria with me and we both acknowledged that i fit each one pretty much spot on. so...that was my introduction to BPD.
to be honest, it's quite a relief. until last week i had always thought that there was just something really flawed or crazy about me and that it was all my fault, and i was the only one. but now i realize that it's an actual problem that can be defined and pinned down and dealt with. and that is such a weight off my shoulders. with this website and my therapist's help i can find ways to fend off my twisted thinking and hopefully *fingers crossed* start becoming a functioning 'normal' person; or as close to normal as i can get
anyway i just wanted to say hi and also to ask if you would be kind enough to share some of your stories/coping strategies with me? i would really appreciate it. it would be so helpful to learn how other people manage to deal with the black-and-white thinking and the obsessiveness in relationships and the crazy mood swings...coz i am really struggling at the moment, and have been struggling a LOT this past year in particular. i never know who i am from one day to the next, and i don't know how to control my emotions. i am sick of allowing one little bad thing to turn my day into weeping, storming gloom and doom. also i really want to learn how to restrain my BPD for the sake of my poor family and friends, who i torment and ostracize, and my poor boyfriend, who i have already pushed away once but who thankfully came back...
please help me learn how to tackle this disorder - and hopefully win.
thanks guys..
take care
nice to meet you all