ive been going to a DBT day program for 5 weeks. it's getting very upsetting. i'm even getting physically sick to my stomach before going in the mornings.
i think a lot of it boils down to the fact that i've gotten in touch with a few emotions that i'm not used to experiencing (ie, anger towards my dad).
after doing many emotion discovery worksheets, i understand what this feeling of anger is, how it manifests in my body, and why im feeling angry. i'm good at sitting with it and then distracting or moving on to other daily tasks. however, it keeps arising again and i'm left feeling very lost as to how next to deal with this emotion.
i'm not looking forward to the rest of my life if i'm just to notice these emotions, experience them, discover the function, purpose, etc., then move on. the down times or the extremely emotional times are greatly outweighing the plateau or occasional enjoyable times. i'm struggling to keep the worth of life in mind at all.
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