Honestly H, you are so right - bpd pattern of mine, the more I achieve the harder it is to combat the typical bpd patters that arrive.
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t some point I just have to rely on my knowledge base and trust in myself that whatever comes my way I can handle. I think you can too!
Yes, I need to remember this.
I know I'm strong. The evidence proves it. And at the same time, when is it optimal to return to therapy for mental health checkups?
Quite honestly, maybe I'm not at the point where therapy is an afterthought, rather than a priority. I have made a decision, which although financially burdensome, emotionally I believe is to my benefit. Therefore, I am going back to therapy every other week. $200 gone a month/ but isn't my feeling s of being in control, managing my life without freaking out, worth that? A tenet I learned earier in life - if your mental health is out of wack, then nothing else really matters. Because if your mental health needs therapy, reassurance, whatever.... that is the prioroty. Without that, life goes to crap eventually, one way or another.
One of the truly great aspects of this site is not only the emphasis on the skills, but also the safety and security of when those skills aren't working as well as one would wish.
In other words, it is beyond helpful to have the skills handy to help one; It is equally as helpful to me to just be myself, to lay myself bare and even to acknowledge and feel my own fears, and still know that I am not abnormal, that I am not alone, and even that I am allowed to vent the fears engulfing me.
Not only do I feel solace and support from this palce; I find acceptance becuase I know at what point or another, we suffer the same afflictions. ANd we work hard to evole into our own individual potential.
This truly is a community I have depended on for guidance. ANd my hope, is that I can return the favor to other struggling souls out there, whose fondest desire is to make their life better, and even to evolve into his/her potential, no matter how much work and let's face it pain enters the equation!
As always, thanks for listening