Sounds rough, and I don’t know what anyone around here can tell you. I’m new, and don’t have BP, but I’ve been down and confused for sure – life has a way of doing that to everyone. But – it also has many many ways of making the effort worthwhile. Last night I watched an amazing sunset while sitting in the back of my little truck with my dog, having hauled some windfall apples to the neighborhood donkeys. First haul, and they loved them.
It’s all caved in on me before, too. Trudge through the crap – just keep on going, no matter what the pain. Expect little - and the smallest of things will become great rewards. Good people will appear – they’re out there. Do what you must to survive, cuz it’s worth it. Don’t give up, you’ll have an eternity to be gone. We are all the end-products of survival like you can’t imagine, had any one of our ancestors slipped or miscalculated, we wouldn’t be here. Use it, use Life. Hell – it uses you! Wring all you can from it.
I once searched the internet for the least painful way to die – and was so pissed ‘people’ kept telling everyone ‘not to!’ You know what – they were right. I was hurting, seemingly alone and confused, but I stuck with it. It was all worth it, if only to take a couple of phone photos of that sunset last night, to admire my beautiful dog sitting next to me, to have given a treat to those neglected donkeys and just to be alive. So hang on, and reach out, as you are. You never know what lies ahead and can sometimes barely understand what’s now behind… (fuck it) You deserve life ~
|