Hi All,
First I want to apologize for bringing a topic up here on HPD, rather than BPD.
To introduce myself, I am a nonBPD. My dBPDxso and I began counseling last March/April. The joint counseling only lasted the first session as all hell broke loose that night.
From then, we each went individually. Within about 3-4 private sessions our T (I love to call him Mr.T -cause he's a hard ass for recovery) diagnosed her as BPD, he told me to buy the Eggshells book because it might help me to understand her, her illness, and our chaotic life a bit better - i was terribly depressed and just was starting to enter into my nervous breakdown era. But, he had to figure me out for a while.
Well, about 2-3 more session he told me I was HPD.
YUCK! I hated hearing that. I assume it's kinda like you guys might feel lilke when getting the news. It's made me feel shameful too. I'm over that now, I am getting better.
I've diagnosed as Histrionic (quite similar in "criteria" and some symptoms of BPD). In reading eggshells I though I pretty much fit the bill on a lot of it -BPD. But I don't. Lately I've learned a lot about me and of course I have learned more about BPD too. I have realized that though HPDs can be confused as being BPD we seem to handle the "reactions" and "feelings" differently. I actually think I can pretty much understand a lot of what goes on in my ex's mind. I wish she would get back with her treatment but she quit a couple of months ago
I hang-out on the "non's" website to deal with my exBPD issues but I can't find a place to fit for my HPD.
Nobody there has recommended anything to me either, though I haven't asked. I guess I feel more comfortable asking you guys.
So, do any of you know a good site for me to go to for me. Like you guys are doing for yourselves? It's not same at the bpdfamily for me to get what I am seeking. They are all about nons. They are even nons to HPD. So I feel awkward having to ry and deal with my own stuff.
I want to find a group of people like me. I know you and I are kinda close, but we're not...
thanks
bumpy